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i am now almost officially starting to hate volleyball..as much as i love it (i know that doesnt make sense)..and i want to improve..it seems like i absolutely have no hope..it is a pessimistic view of things but really..i dont want it to come to a point that i become so frustrated that i will actually hate it..iused to be obsessed..as in aside from training, my teammates and i would play every break time under the sun no matter how sweaty we’d get..but now? roar..i dont know what to think, say or feel anymore. roar. okay, no one probably understands everything that ive been saying so far except my teammates but i dont feel inclined to explain further..lets just say..sayang..:o haha, its enough to make me cry..waaahhh:(

Haha, lonely rin ako..wahahah! only kaila kaye and cha understand this..wahahah! grabe, as in…i dont want to elaborate rin coz baka mabasa ng coach..and..hmmmm…tsk tsk. hehehehe…

hahaha, hay nakow im taking the stupidest subjects now..as in subjects that dont require thinking..almost..basta semi-useless..filipi2, kasaysayan ng Phils.2, sociology, relsone, and english one..i cant wait to take math subjects again..hahaha,DORK:p

anyway, on a brighter note, im coming to love my teammates despite all my negative feelings towards playing. haha, as in..okay, katext ko sila every night about absolutely anything and everything..haha, dont know what i’ll do without them..(you know who you are if you’re reading it) wahaha,araw araw kumakain ng siomai at FIC sa z2..hehehe…kaya sama sama rin naggain ng weight!:p wahahaha, im so heavy na!! this is the heaviest ive ever been..haha,massive would be the better term..:o roar! but anyhoo, thank God i’m tall…hindi ganon kaobvious..is it possible that im both fat and macho??:o wala lang, napaisip lang ako..anyway, thats all the time i have.

Hay nakow! today, i didnt get to train again..haha, every thursdays naman eh. but anyhoo, i had kasi 3 hours of engalge (engineering algebra) before lunch. and we had pa a quiz okay, and i expected to get perfect…kaya lang, im so freaking careless. okay, i was thinking pa coz we had binomial expansion okay…and he didnt want us to multiply the stuff na. as in, it could be 11×7x8 etc..kaya lang, there were terms na 8 times 2 raised to 5 or something. i was contemplating on whether or not to change 8 to 2 cubed and combine with the other 2 or not! and i didnt na lang! STUPID MISTAKE! i got 8/10, tae! and it was a relatively easy quiz okay! roar! kill me now. kidding:p wahahaha!

but anyhoo, i havent seen a lot of people in la salle yet. martina, where the hell are you hiding? hahaha! hay. i’m tired na of studying and it hasnt even started yet! i wish i never chose engineering talaga. roar! haha, i sound like uch a dork, i have nothing to talk about but school. wahahaha!

hay, can i share one last thing? when i started training with la salle, i dont know what the hell happened to me. i seem to have lost my confidence as a player. all my spikes, even in the open area, wouldnt go in! and its not like the net is so much higher, it isnt! haha! parang i couldnt do anything..at all. its like, i only started playing. oh well. hahaha!:p til next time:p

okay, this is the very first time i’m ever writing a blog, since i was never really into this online journal since i have a real one. but since i am bored, and im too tired to actually write, i guess i’ll gve this a shot.
my god, i realized how excruciatingly hectic college life can be. i actually wish i took some no brainer course in some other college (in dlsu parin of course) coz i have 2 math subjects. who ever thought that engineering can go together with playing volleyball? it’s early on in the year, and already i am tired. also, im afraid i will fail all my subjects. its hard enough to stay in engineering without extra curricular activities. demmet. i had to adjust all my classes to afternoon classes since training is in the morning. god, that was such a hassle. plus, i had to drop my chem lab since i really have no more time for it. god, i will die soon.:o haha, my teacher told me there will be some things she won’t be taking up but the lab teacher will and i will have to do a lot of self-studying. ROAR! i cannot take this. i’m actually studying nowadays. can you believe it? i miss the days when we would only have to open our notes (assuming that we have notes) when exam time comes. i actually read some lessons in advance because i am so afraid of failing!
i’m such a complainer, i know, but i can’t help it. of course i am happy that i am playing volleyball. i just cant imagine being a student and not a student athlete. is that term correct?:p i hope so. i cant imagine just going home everyday without anything to do. i actually revel in being this busy. i just hope it won’t kill me. anyway, this is quite long for a first entry, so, tata for now!:p im going to sleep already.

-harrassed student (its me cristine)